Sweet Summer <3

Today; after 12am. Learning that some people are having a harder time with this than I realized; and even the one that I did realize, is holding more against me than I thought [should have known].

I miss my friends; the life I had a year ago seems much more enjoyable now than it was at the time...I wonder if a year from now all this will as well? As time passes, bad memories fade && the good ones are all that remain. I am thankful for that, most definitely.

Summer is taunting me, more and more every day with quick reminders that it isn't far away. I wonder what people will come & go with the change of season, as they seem to do every year, at least one. This summer will be one of the best though for a lot of reasons. 1- completion. 2- warm weather = happier people. maybe. 3-travel opportunities are a must 4-return of excess money in my wallet which leads to 5-summer clothes which include 6-showing off my tattoo at the beach which involves 7-late nights && nostalgic times with friends I wouldn't trade for anything. Only possible negative is 8-summer classes.

My life started the summer I was 15. I've hit a crucial turning point in my life every summer since. All I have to say is that this time, I can't wait.

confused & sure all at the same time?

I have to say that the last month has been interesting to say the least. I'm amazed at how much i've learned in such a small amount of time. It isn't the benefits as far as a job, professional growth, or anything on the surface that i'm really happy i've aquired either. It's the things I've realized that few people even know about, that parts of me that are completely internal and emotional.

I didn't make the choice to do it, in all honesty, to be a successful businesswoman. I'm the kind of person that kind of always felt like I would be successful in that aspect regardless. {might be over-estimating due to the worlds position today, but still, Ive never worried I wouldnt get by}. The last year has been a transformation of sorts for me- battling the line between wanting to be an adult in a relationship while still holding on to all the insecurities that would never allow me to do that. So I did this, to better the relationship I have with myself, before anyone else. To know me, and to love me, regardless; working through those insecurities on my own so that, when I am ready, they don't carry on into a relationship with someone else. Everyone that knows me knows that I take care of everyone else before myself, but I think in this short amount of time i've learned how to take care of myself and everyone more equally.

I'm still battling with some things, but it has been months since I have kept myself awake worrying about them. I am more sure than ever that I am happy, and I have 21 new friends, and the ones that have been here for a while now, to thank for that. <3